Thoughts After a Year...

I currently have three other posts in draft form...they are coming, I assure you!

Life is crazy busy around here as the year is rolling down. Grad is only in 6 days! Already a whole year since I graduated...

And it makes me think.

What has happened since I graduated?
What have I accomplished?
Where am I now?

Who am I now?

It can be sobering to think back on the first year after your graduation. Sometimes it seems as no time at all has gone by. But almost 365 days have passed. 

Was each day worth it? 

Did I live according to the ideals and goals I had when I walked down the aisle?

Did I continue to seek God as my first and highest passion?

Did I take advantage of every circumstance He provided to bless or to grow,

or were my days characterized 

by missed opportunities?

by victories or defeat? 

by lessons learned?

Did I make a difference? 

Am I different?

All these questions...all these thoughts after a year. The answers are between me and God. 

But I can see that though I have had 

many missed opportunities, 

many apparent defeats,
and many lessons slowly and agonizingly learned—

though I have not always been faithful—

God is faithful. 

He steadfastly led me step by step, 

pausing too often to wait as I became distracted with worries and temptations, 

gently picking me up and dusting me off when I fell, 

and lifting my head once again to focus on the narrow way, 

pointing to the light at the end. 

It fills me with utter gratitude that He is merciful.

And though I am not worthy, He is still using me to bless others.

And He has brought me here. He has made me who I am.

I am confident of this very thing, that He who has begun a good work in [me] will complete it until the day of Jesus Christ. Philippians 1:6

What about you?